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“i pop too many pills my boyfriend says. he confiscated a bottle, but i have others. I take more then he knows behind his back. it was already a huge trust issue when he found out i had been taking one drug behind his back, if he were to now discover that i've continued doing this with not one but several drugs, he may never trust me again. and he loves me so much it would distroy him. why am i doing this? am i trying to sabotage my relationship? that can't be, i love him more than my own life and i can't imagine a life without him. i know we'd both contemplate suicide if we were to break up, and worse, i'm his first real love, he's never had a serious relationship before me. i don't know how he'd handle it if it did end. that's one of my worst fears, hurting him. and i have been recently. things were so rough yesterday, this has never happened to us in 2 years. so why can't i stop lying to him? i'm a deceitful, manipulative, and undeserveing little cunt. he's this best thing that's ever happened to me, why am i throwing a wrench into a beautifully functioning machine? god i need to get a grip on myself. i can see disappointment and sadness in his eyes sometimes now. it's killing me”
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your boyfriend should get a new girlfriend, he deserves better than you.
Just start having threesomes with him and whomever else he wants and he'll forget about the drugs.
Start slipping the drugs into his food, eventually he'll become addicted and you can both live in your own little private drug-love-world.
Stop watching the young and the restless!
Take a chill pill psycho!
You're unstable. Have you considered taking Prozak?
you're just an addict, you need to seek professional help. It's not something you can beat on your own.
Smarten the hell up!
You need to stop taking drugs and you need to tell him the truth.